| Jonny GREEN is back.... |
[Jun. 16th, 2008|10:52 pm] |
Welcome to an all new edition of Jonny GREEN, it has been too long! :) Well I am back, and better than ever! I have been gathering inspiration and living life all to make my dreams reality... This being one of my steps in that direction! I will have a talk show, magazine, clothing line, fragrance(s), a television network, a movie watchers club, a music division(in which to show up and coming stars, give appreciation to musicians that I love, etc), shoes shoes shoes, get together with apple to create a GREENER tomorrow, advertise American Apparel, have an animal rights division promoting animals, environment, etc, write a book explaining GREENage, explore different cultures, and so on.
I will have a successful career on television that both educates people and also entertains people. My goal is to make people happier, more accepting, loving, and care-free! Not only will I be successful, but I will create jobs for people so that we can all create a better tomorrow! :) I just had to get all of that off my chest! Thank you all for being a part of my personal pep talk! |
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| The comeback that you have all been waiting for.... |
[Jan. 11th, 2008|08:17 pm] |
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Here is the update special and a promise to update more often.
Welcome to a prime time edition of Jonny Green Gets Personal. In order to advertise and reestablish viewers we have decided to do a prime time edition.
I am here, on location, at Starbucks in Palos Verdes. What's going on you ask? Well it is Friday night and the children have taken over.
I am starting school in a month and I get to carpool with Luke. Nothing could make me happier than to drive to and from school with the person I love the most. My parents on the other hand have been at their wits end with me and it is actually understandable. I have not saved money, they are fed up. Because of my irresponsibility they have refused to pay for school and in all honesty I think that is the best decision. I want to be free of them financially, this ensures that. I can just barely afford to pay tuition but somehow I am going to work this out. The silver lining here is Candy, my godmother. She has let Luke and I live with her free of charge. Although we have probably overstayed our welcome I think we have rekindled the fire there so we have a little more time. I know Luke and I can handle this. I need to do my part, save money, and actually contribute to Luke and my future.
Starting school is a big deal, especially for me. This time I am going to do it for me and no one else. I have a responsibility not only to myself but to our society to help, to change the world in my own little way. I can do this and I will do this. I now have an angel on my side to help me through the hard times. He actually cries when he gets frustrated with me, he cries for me... Wow, I am so blessed and so grateful for him.
All I need to do right now is save money, and I have begun my journey to a better future by opening a new checking account with a savings account. I will do this. I will save money and Luke and I will find a cute little apartment in West Los Angeles, a place we can call our own. We will move and I will get another job if I have to. If that will make it easier on Luke then I will do it, anything to relieve my angels stress. He has stressed enough, it's my turn. I deal well with stress, it motivates me. I am stressed now and I am actually proactive. This is all a learning experience and in the end I will learn so much from all of this.
The ideal job for me would be Nordstrom again, I miss commission sales. I miss the competition and the money. I miss the fashion world. I will go back and be the best sales associate they have. I can do this. :)
There are some of my goals and a look into my future.
Ps. I will end all of this with my talk show. I will win emmys and I will be remembered. :) I will help our world a little bit with my optimism.
Maybe a radio show internship is in my future?! |
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| For those of you who read this... |
[Oct. 13th, 2007|06:01 pm] |
I am in love and couldn't be happier! :) I love Luke Horvath and I will spend my life with him so there! :) |
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| UPDATE!! |
[Feb. 26th, 2007|07:07 pm] |
God evening everyone, welcome to the very first prime time edition of Jonny Green gets personal. Tonight is an episode dedicated to updating you all on where I am. I have a lot of change coming my way, and I couldn't be more thrilled.
I am planning a comeback. La is my home and I need to be there. I miss it, I miss my friends. One thing that I haven't really thought about until recently was my parents, especially my mom. I really am going to miss her. She is literally my best friend. I know our relationship, though, and I know we are going to talk like everyday. But still, she won't be coming into my Starbucks everyday, I won't see her everyday... Just an adjustment I have to come to terms with. I am so excited to be going back and getting back to school. Radio is also something I am going to pursue when I am back there... You never know that could also get my name out there. I will change this world and I will make a difference and I will show people how to let go of their anger and resentment and love each other. :)
Los Angeles is my home. Los Angeles is my place. I am coming home... SOON! I have been looking at apartments online and there are some really cuet apartments out there... I can't wait to live there. I have dreams and ambition... I just can't wait to start living out my dream. I want to show myself and everyone else that I can do this, I can do what I say I will. I want to show people that you can do whatever you set your mind to. I mean if I can do it anyone can! :) Thank you all for tuning into this primetime edition of Jonny Green gets personal. GREEN News, Las Vegas, Jonny GREEN. :) |
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| Hey y'all!!!! |
[Jan. 29th, 2007|10:48 pm] |
Wow, it has really been a while!!! :) I miss this. Letting it all out... I am slowly regaining my sanity again. Life is on an upward journey. I am destined for amazing things. I am moving back to La to pursue my dream of having my own talk show. I cannot wait to get back into school. I can't wait to be back where I belong. I miss my home.
I am no longer best friends with Dana. Her and I have grown apart, we can talk and we are by no means bitter anymore. I have just realized that we have different aspirations and different dreams. We are two completely different people, who lack the common grounds we used to hold on to. I can't say she is wrong for choosing the path she did just like she can't say I am wrong for walking down mine. The thing is we went opposite ways somewhere down the line and to find our way back would be stepping in the wrong direction. I have plans now, no one can stand in my way. I love her so much but I cannot physically be there anymore. I worry too much. I care too much. It hurts.
Vegas really has changed me. But at the same time it has liberated me. I have seen a side of myself I never thought existed. I have learned so much, though. I have learned about myself, I have learned about others, and I have learned who my true friends are. I am so grateful for the positive people in my life. Gosh, I can't imagine what I would do without the amazing friends and family I have. I am one lucky guy.
Upon my return to higher education (college) I am going to so all that I can to make a name for myself there. I will do the video production thing, newspaper, and the school radio... I am sooo excited about it! Radio, it sounds so fun! I mean I can interview the school celebs and talk about things I am passionate about. Oh man it is going to be great! I cannot wait.
Christina Aguilera had better win at least one grammy. I am so mad she is only up for 2. Especially when Mary J Blidge is up for 8... Umm... Lame! Ms. Aguilera should have been nominated a few more, but its all good.
Norah Jones has a new cd coming out tomorrow! YAY! I am really excited about it. Wow, she has a great voice! :)
Little Miss Sunshine.. Go rent it. It is so great, so cute and so original! It is even up for Best Picture... Dream Girls is not! WOW! :)
Anyway, I am going to go watch Golden Girls. Have a great one everyone! :) |
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| Hey Everyone!!! |
[Dec. 11th, 2006|05:45 pm] |
Wow, it has really been too long. My last entry was so depressing. Although I still have the same views as the last entry, my modd is different on the entire situation. I have realized that I am a rescuer. I put people in my life that need my help as I need theirs. Some of the people I will never get the chance to help bc they will not recognize me as help. I am ok with that. I can deal with that, now it comes to respect and trust. Both of which I can't seem to find in my room mate. Almost everytime I talk to her, I find out that she has lied to me at some point in our friendship. I can't trust her, we can't be friends. With all of that said, I do still care but I will not waste my time anymore. Also I can always be nice, there is no reason to be ruthless.
I have come to many realizations lately. I need to be more picky with the people I spend time with, I need more positive influences and people who are motivated. I am just at a point where I feel like I am just wasting time. I have not really done anything here in Vegas and I can't blame the people or the city, its all me. I need to be stronger! I am losing my strength here and I need to find myself again. I just have not been the same lately, I have been making decisions that are less than positive ones. I just don't like who I am lately... Obviously I can change that, it is me we are talking about. I have really been thinking about what I can do to ground myself and make myself better and I have decided that I am just going to be kind of a loner...
I am just going to start reading and get ready to move back to La. I am moving back. Hopefully by next fall I should be back in La, where I belong. I miss the people and the lifestyle. Well that is all for now. I will be updating you all soon! :) |
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| It's late... But I have a lot on my mind....! |
[Jun. 11th, 2006|01:23 am] |
Hello everyone and welcome to another edition of Jonny GREEN gets personal.. It is a special edition, late night! My best friend and I are not talking and its ok with me. I don't approve of her choices and I can't even trust her. She hurts my feelings constantly and has no remorse. Who is she? I am done... I am not her mother and I am finished pretending. She made a choice without realizing it. She chose drugs over me, and when this is all over her and I will not be friends. When she comes crying to me for support and love she will not get it, she doesn't deserve it. She lies, she hurts me, and most of all she hasn't been true to anyone... not even herself. She is one weak person who is lost, sucks for her. I just think its sad that I am less important than a drug, One day she will see how much I cared and how dumb she is for choosing to let me out walk away. I can't wait until she walks up to me and acts like its all ok, cause never will she and I be ok. Weakness and laziness are two things I refuse to accept. whatever, goodbye Dana. I'm sorry that you can't seem to grow up and take responsibility for anything. I am sorry I wasn't enough for you. I'm sorry your so lost. Good luck finding yourself and good luck. One day when everything isn't just handed to you, you will see how much of a friend I really was to you and Dane, to tell you the truth, all our memories and such are only memories... It is all in the past, because I am moving on. I can't do it anymore, I have to live my life. So there is that. |
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| Hey everyone!!!!! |
[Jun. 6th, 2006|11:05 pm] |
WOWZERS!!! It has been too long, I apologize for all this delay and reruns of Jonny GREEN gets personal. We are back and I am making a personal promise to all our viewers that I will update this weekly, hopefully more!
Welcome back to Jonny GREEN gets personal.. Let me start by updating you all on my life and my goals! Ready?! Here goes....
I am living in Las Vegas, actually Henderson. I live in a land called Seven Hills, its very nice. I have an awesome 2 bedroom apartment with my best friend Dana Aliza Hyatt! I, of course, have the master room... haha! I work 2 jobs; Starbucks(duh!) and Nordstrom! I love them both, Starbucks is just too fun and I cannot leave. Nordstrom is more of a job, but nonetheless fun. I enjoy sales and making my paycheck.
My goals.... Lets start with short term goals; 1. Start exercising(regularly), 2. Start eating healthier, 3. save money, and 4. Love life!!!
My long term goals; 1. Go back to school (2 years max! Hopefully a year and a half), 2. Move to New York ORRR San Fran, 3. Save money!
OOOoooOOOO!!!! I almost forgot!! I am getting my moms old car.. whoop whoop!!! A 1999 Mercedes, umm yeah! I am sooo exciteD!!! She just got a new Lexus that rocks my socks, so my daddy says I get her old car.. whoop whoop major to that! There is the update version of Jonny GREEN gets personal! Thank you all for sticking with us! YOU ROCK! Good night!!! :) :) :) |
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| WOW! |
[Sep. 13th, 2005|04:16 pm] |
Jonny GREEN gets personal has had some major difficulties and we are working on a strong return. Once again our sponserers stopped caring. We now have sponserers that are here to stay!
Welcome back to Jonny GREEN gets personal, I am your host Jonny! This show is dedicated to YOU.
Today we are updating you on where we are and our new goals and plans. WE (the show) have relocated to Las Vegas, sin city. It's fabulous.. New experiences and new people. I can't help but miss home though. I miss Palos Verdes and the people that surrounded my life. Vegas is nice except people here are a little more judgemental and less accepting. That really doesn't bother me bc I have my friends, but sometimes it gets to me. Why do people care about who I am and what I do? It doesn't concern them, stay out of my business. Oh well people are lame, I am here to make them all smile.
Today I was watching Ellen and WOW>... I need that, a talk show.. I NEED IT. It looks like a hell of a lot of work but at the same time lots of fun... She gets paid to sit and talk and have a great time.. WOW! Umm YAh, I can talk.. AHHH! Jonny GREEN gets personal is going nationwide and soon we will be picked up by the National Broadcast stations and we will all be HAPPY... LOL...
Well everyone that is all for today's e[pisode of Jonny GREEN gets personal, have a great day! :)
Don't forget to smile, you are all beautiful! |
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| BLAHH!!! |
[Jan. 12th, 2005|11:38 pm] |
Hello everyone, welcome to Jonny GREEN, I am your host JONNY!
Today I wanted to talk to you all about friends. We all have them, and we all love them. But how well do we really know them? Do we really know them? Friendship is such a powerful thing and I think that we all take it for granted. It's sad. Friends are there for us when times are rough, they are there when family is a bitch, when no one else seems to care, but do we ever take the time to thank them, really thank them? I mean do they ever really know how truly wonderful they are? I know that many of my friends are overlooked. I think we should be a little more appreciative of the amazing people in our lives.
You know who you are. Your such a great friend to me and I wish that you knew how grateful I am, even tho this is small I really just want to thank you. Thanks for being who you are. Your a giver, you truly care about people, and your all around a great person. Believe it or not you are. You have this ability to make others feel loved and wanted, you take the time to listen. Listening is something many of is need to learn, but you have mastered. Not only do you listen but you try to help the people around you try to find a solution to their problems. Your always there, when no one else is. You matter, your important, you make a difference in my life and in so many other peoples. Thank you for teaching me how to be a friend, you taugh me by example, I can't think of a better role-model. You take me out, you drive, you make my life so much better, you make running errands fun, you make going out to eat an adventure. Your stories rock, you rock! Your so modest that you don't take any of this to heart, but you should.. Really. Your truly a blessing to me and to everyone you encounter. go YOU!
Friends are there... Go out today and tell your friends how much they mean to you, take them to lunch, or even write them a note telling them how much they better your life. Life is so short and I think we all need to just stop and smell the roses. Take it all in, one step at a time. Thanks everyone for being who you are, I love YOU! Good night! |
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[Jan. 11th, 2005|10:59 pm] |
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JONNY GREEN get personal is back! Sorry ladies and gentleman, we had some financial difficulties.. our sponsers stopped sponsering us, HOW RUDE! haha, anyway, I am back and better then ever.
First I would like to thank you all for standing by me through all of this. I am back and I am ready to shine! Here I come world.. watch out!!!!
Second I just want to tell you all something I have learned in the past few months... Love is all you need. No matter what happens love is what keeps the world turning.. we all need to just stop and smell the roses and realize how precious life is. We don't all need to be so shallow and get surgeries and shizz.. just be who we are.. We are all here for a reason, and let me tell you that I love you for who you are.
Ok now to be shallow.. hehe... Life is so great, I am in college, I am still on winter break, I work at a starbucks in Santa Monica now, and life is just in the fast lane. I love iT! Well thanks for tuning into our update edition of Jonny GREEN gets personal and stay tuned we are back, and we are here to stay! Thanks everyone, good night! |
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| wow! |
[Aug. 28th, 2004|04:30 pm] |
Hello everyone and welcome to the first ever summer edition of Jonny GREEN!!! Summer has been the gretest ever, well next to wheels. WOW, working has been a drag but whatever... I have gone and done sooo much!! SAN FRAN!!>> I went to San Francisco with my friend Danika!! That city rocks, the URBAN OUTFITTERS was huge!! ahhh! LOL, anyway I had a blast! This summer has been great, I have actually been out living my life, WHOOP WHOOP major to that!! Now that fall is back I have a lot to do in a very short period of time. For example, I need to find an apartment, thats the main thing, I also need to get the rest of my books, but that will get done. Its so weird to think, a week from today I am going to college, WOW, so weird!! Also with the new season ((FALL)) comes all new episodes of Jonny GREEN gets personal! yay!! Thank you to all my viewers, you guys rock my little GREEN world, hehe! hmmm, what else?? summer just rocks, I am really going to miss it... Oh yes!! MY FRIENDS!! My best friend Dana just left for San Fran, sooooo jealous, and I am going to miss her sooooooooooooooooo much. This summer we really got close, I feel like we will be friends forever! I love her!!! My other friend Danika has started college and its all just too weird!! No more high school, no more stupid drama, its all me, AHHHHH!!! My other school friends are leaving soon or already have, RYAN I MISS YOU!!! EKTHA I LOVE YOU!!! AHHHHH I MISS YOU ALL!!!! Then there's Tracy, awwww Tracy I miss you!!! Tracy is staying local and persuing her dancing, go YOU hunny! But its just like we have all known just about everyone in our school, or atleast in our grade and now we are all going to different schools where we are lucky to know anyone, its so overwhelming and sometimes intimidating... oh well I will survive!! The GREENage will help, hehe!! Life is in the fast lane and the speed just keeps increasing, its great!! and then its scary, and AHHHH!! Well there you have it, thats the update for now, stay tuned for an official date of the first all new Fall episode of Jonny GREEN gets personal! Love you all!! love always and forever, Jonny GREEN!!!! |
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| PRE-GRADUATION!! |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|04:03 pm] |
Dear Journal,
Hello, and welcome to a very special edition of Jonny GREEN gets personal. This episode is titled, "PRE-GRADUATION."
Wow, I am graduationg. It's so scary to think that I have spent the last 19 years of my life with these people and next year I won't even a small percentage of them! Life is going to be exciting and scary at the same time. I feel so priveledged to have grown up in this community regardless of what anyone thinks, PV is home, and always will be.
Tonight is going to be so emotional, I hope, I truly hope that I cry, its the best way to conclue the past year. From WHEELS to SCHOOL to USY to all the FRIENDS I have made, I love my life, thanks to all of you who have contributed! I love YOU!
I can say one thing though, this year may be over, but JONNY GREEN is still going strong. I love life and I love all of my surroundingS!
So, how am I feeling? Well,thats a hard one,I almost want to say neutral, because I am in a range of emotions! I have so many fond memories of PENINSULA all the friends and jokes and everything! thanks peninsula for being there! also thank you to my wonderful friends I love you all for being such important roles in my life, I wouldn't be who I am if it weren't for each and EVERY one of YOU!
Well thanks for tuning into this very special and emotional edition of JONNY GREEN gets personal. stay tuned for POST GRADUATION, a time for reflection.
LOVE YOU ALL!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!
love always,
JONNY!! |
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| PRE-GRADUATION!! |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|03:53 pm] |
Dear Journal,
Hello, and welcome to a very special edition of Jonny GREEN gets personal. This episode is titled, "PRE-GRADUATION."
Wow, I am graduationg. It's so scary to think that I have spent the last 19 years of my life with these people and next year I won't even a small percentage of them! Life is going to be exciting and scary at the same time. I feel so priveledged to have grown up in this community regardless of what anyone thinks, PV is home, and always will be.
Tonight is going to be so emotional, I hope, I truly hope that I cry, its the best way to conclue the past year. From WHEELS to SCHOOL to USY to all the FRIENDS I have made, I love my life, thanks to all of you who have contributed! I love YOU!
I can say one thing though, this year may be over, but JONNY GREEN is still going strong. I love life and I love all of my surroundingS!
So, how am I feeling? Well,thats a hard one,I almost want to say neutral, because I am in a range of emotions! I have so many fond memories of PENINSULA all the friends and jokes and everything! thanks peninsula for being there! also thank you to my wonderful friends I love you all for being such important roles in my life, I wouldn't be who I am if it weren't for each and EVERY one of YOU!
Well thanks for tuning into this very special and emotional edition of JONNY GREEN gets personal. stay tuned for POST GRADUATION, a time for reflection.
LOVE YOU ALL!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!
love always,
JONNY!! |
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| SATURDAY!! |
[May. 22nd, 2004|12:09 pm] |
dear journal,
hello and welcome back, its been a while since we've had a fresh show! JONNY GREEN has returned! whoop whoop!! i happy to report that all is well in GREENland! life is wonderful and school is almost out!
i am going to prom with my best friend in the world ERICA MARTIN, hehe, its gonna be off the heeezee for sheeeezzeee!! and work, wow, i have been working soo much lately, i dont know if i like it, i mean i make money but i miss a lot of things. lounge for one thing, i havent been is soo long, but i guess its good since i wont be here next year.
<< JOSH YAHALOM YOU ROCK!!>>
anyway, i am sooo excited, nect year i am most likely going to be getting my very own apartment with a buddy of mine, max! its gonna rock to the IZZLE fo SHIZZLE! i mean i am going to be living on my own, how much does that "OWN," or as the cool people like to say now a days, how "DANK" is that!? haha, anyway, life is in the fast lane, and im stoked to see what comes next! convention is soooo soooon! ahhhh, i can't wait! i love all my JEWS, you guys are number 1!
so as i said, starbucks is great as a customer, but as an employee its getting old, i need a new job, and i think i have found onE! T-MOBILE, selling cell phones, wow, i could so do that, i mean i already have three! lol! so thats what i really want to do! so wish me luck! ahhh!
GRADUATION, its sooo soon, wow. to think i am almost done with high school, scary, my life as i know it is about to change dramatically, hopefully for the better! its so strange that i will be attending a school where i am lucky to know one person in all six of my classes! YIKES!~! but at the same time thats exciting!
MOVIES!!! fight club! wow that movie was so dam awesome, but i could only think that because the three most awesome guys ever think so>> MARKage, MIKE BROTMAN, and the "LAW">> o well, i loved it! american beauty, wow, i love that movie! i cant believe i had never seen it before this year, its the best! wow! so go see those movies, omg and godsend, ahhhhhhh scariness 108! lol it was pretty good! so thats our movie update, and stay tuned, all new episodes are coming! whoop whoop!
thanks again for reading and watching jonny GREEN gets personal! whoop whoop to all of you!
love always, jonny! |
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| its thursday! |
[May. 6th, 2004|10:08 pm] |
dear journal! wow, its been way too long!
so there is sooo much to talk about... ONE i am feeling a lot better! life is all great again! so whoop whoop! and welcome to the segment of the jonny GREEN show we like to call "jonny GREEN gets personal." just so all you viewers know the show is in sindication, but this is the original! so welcome!
so recently my mom and i went to santa monica to visit my school for next year, and i loved it! i cant wait to go there and make a name for myself! its gonna be off the heeeeeezeeee! and my mom even said i might be able to get an apartment or one bedroom house, how awesome would that be?! omg i cant wait!
AND... if all goes according to planned, i am going to get a job at a T-mobile store that pays 12.50 an hour! that means i might even have a BMW by the end of summer! ahhhh!!! its a sales job, i will rock!
so all in all life is great! im looking forward to life after high school! work and school!! ahhh!
im quite tired, so thats all for now, good night! love you all! thanks for tuning into this edition of Jonny GREEN gets personal!
later! |
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| wednesday...:( whats wrong with me? |
[Apr. 28th, 2004|10:16 pm] |
dear journal,
what is this feeling, i keep feeling down, but its weird ever time i get down it gets harder to go back, or be happier, i hate this! i want to be happy and not care, but i feel like i am done, i feel like i am supposed to be somewhere else, this life is in need of a bigger power.. no one understands how to love and be nice, and i am beginning to lose my sanity.. why cant people just be themselves, why has society taught s all to be afraid and not to eat... why is this life so wrong, why cant we all be fat and happy and truthful? life would be great...
who are u? why do u duplicate everything? are u afraid? of u? why? i love u? dont be scared, but be you, dont be me! i am an individual, please, let me have that, i cant change myself bc i want to be different, but u have to find yourself, i hope u know who u are...
anyway... my life is so great bc of usy and bc of family, but its over and i feel like its done, i am supposed to go. but where, or is it that i am lonely? where is my soul mate? where are you? i know your out there! please find me, soon, i need you, i need you so bad, love is what i give the world, but where's my love, not friendly love, true love? where are you, please for me, find me!!!!!!
as my life moves on i know i will grow and learn how to change all this ignorance and hate.. watch me! life is short, im running out of time, i need help, you can help me>> here's how>> love everyone and everything, life is beautiful.. remember that!
love u all, thanks for being there!
later
jonny GREEN show will return soon, we are working on an all new show, that is out of this world, stay tuned! thanks to all u viewers! |
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| wow.. today sucked. |
[Apr. 27th, 2004|07:34 pm] |
dear journal,
today was not the best day, and if you know jonny GREEN you know that i dont have bad days, but i am entitled to a few. here's how it went....
it started out ok, i mean my mom had to take me, well thats how it started.
yesterday! so im waiting infront of school for my brother and my dam car overheats! how embarassing! so im freaking out bc i have to work, but it all turned out ok, EXCEPT the fact that i can't drive my car until my dad gets back, which is this thursday! so my mom and erica have to drive me everywhere! it sucks, i feel like a freshman in high school, and those were pre-GREEN jonny, haha, but seriously!
so today, my mom drives me to school, and i go to zero period, only to sit there! and its so boring, and thats the reason i ditch so much, you will understand later! and so zero period had a test so they all got out early, so i wait for nikolette to get done so we can go to starbucks, and then she decides not to, but i still need the cold drink! so i go with erica, and i get her to back to school just in time. so i get through first and second, its soo hott!! then 3rd period we have a guest speaker, a rabbi, thats great! but mid class i get a call slip saying i need to go to ms darlings office, the associate principle! yikes! and it sucks bc my bro just got in trouble from her, and she called home! so im freaking out! so i cant just leave while the rabbi is talking, so i go right after third period. onlt to sit there for a dam hour, how ridiculous! it was aweful, all that anticipation! so i missed fourth period which they had better not give me shit for, bc i was sitting in there! and then i get home to get a message from the teacher i TA for zero period, so of course i deleted it! no way my mom will hear that, and truthfully, its bull shit! i hate this, i am a senior in high school, why should i have to come to class everyday to sit in the back and day dream! it sucks! so i never go, i mean come on. and the office was calling me in for zero and fourth! fourth period is ECON! i have an "A" so why should it even matter! ahh! school is such a bitch! omg! but i hate being down!
work was great! katie A is the best, she made me feel better, but i just hate my freaking school! i cant wait to be out! but watever, i cant let it get to me this bad! so screw it, even though we all know its still there. life is great most of the time, but i cant help this feeling of just leaving, leaving this all, im not sure where, but just running! i cant take all of this, i feel like i am done! good bye cruelty, goodbye ignorance! GOOD bye! sorry, its done, ill be back tomorrow in a better mood i hope! thanks for listening! i still love u all!
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dear journal,
life... whats the point, i mean we all go to school to go to college to achieve sucess, but why, bc its something to do? or bc society has taught us that sucess brings happiness!? wow, is that sad? or is it just me?
i just feel like there is so much about this world that is so screwed up, like the word hate! ahh i cannot belive how much hate there is in todays society! its sad, why can't we all just be happy? happiness is the true sucess!
i want to be in love, i want to share my life with someone! i want to be held and hold someone, i want it all, i want to be able to call someone any time, day or night and just talk! i want to sleep with someone and tell them all my secrets, i want it all! will i ever get that? i feel like i won't, i feel like my time is limited, and i feel like my job isn't to please myself, its to make others happy! i am here for others, but isn't there someone there for me? is that selfish? wow, am i selfish bc i want someone to confide in? well i feel like everyone needs to be selfish sometimes, and its so hard to just live life, with all this hatred and ignorance, i want to go and hug those people, tell them that no matter how mean and aweful they are i will love them!
i want to fly away, to a place where only cood people are, like usy, a world of just USY< thats heaven to me!
ok so wow, more from senior shab... these people came in to talk to us about how they started abusing drugs and how they went to college and their drug addictions got worse... and how their parents seemed to be oblivious or is denial! it was truly amazing, but at the same time, i could see myself in their shoes, like i have to do that<< drugs, and even addiction>> to get to where i want to be, but not by chioce of course! but it was like drugs, i can see myself getting addicted and then trying to get help, but then slippingback into it, and its scary bc college is filled with all of that, and i have will power, but i am just scared. i mean drugs can be fun and its just hard to decide where to draw the line, and then i think to myself what about those kids who look up to me? if they ever found out i was doing drugs, wow! so thats usually what keeps me back! but the speakers were so amazing, they basically helped themselves, their parents didn't want to admit that their children had problems. it was so great, i almost cried!
on to new things, those of you who read this, do you have any questions? about anything? please ask me! i love to hear feedback and/or questions! please talk to me! lol love to all of you!
and by the way im a happy person, i just need to vent out those negative thoughts sometimes!
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